[Free] I need a break.

It’s the seventh week of school. My tiredness almost takes over all of my other feelings. I lost all the motivation of go to school and do my homework.

During government class, my soul flies away when Mr.Ramirze and other classmates are sharing about interesting news happened recently.  The words they say go through my ears and then left right away, I only remember some meaningless pieces.  Sometimes I would even lay on my desk and sleep. It doesn’t mean that Mr.Ramirze does not know how to teach, it is just because I am not very interested in government and it is the first class in the morning (although Mr.Ramirez has a monotone voice that can not wake me up). I spent most of my time on keep myself from falling into asleep. The reason I did not fall in asleep in my other classes is because teacher gave me works to do. That keeps me awake.

After school, I do not want to do my homework at all. The first thing I do when I back to my house is sleep. Dinner and Facebook comes next, but it will never be homework. At 12 o’clock I feel sleepy again. (I feel like it is because I did not get enough sleep from last life, so I feel sleepy every minute this life.) Okay, but I still need to work on my homework. The process is slow and full of yawning. It’s already 2 o’clock when I finally get to go to bed. (Sometimes I would choose sleep rather than finish up my homework, just like I did yesterday.) It’s like a cycle that gets worse everyday. My Tiredness just keeps gaining day by day.  I feel that I really need a break now.

[CE] US lifts ban on gay soldiers

http://english.aljazeera.net/news/americas/2011/09/201192023913325189.html

The US policy banning gays from serving openly in the military ends on Tuesday, and the Pentagon says it is prepared for the change. President Barack Obama last December signed legislation to repeal the policy known as "Don't Ask, Don't Tell," which had been passed by Congress and signed into law in 1993 under then-President Bill Clinton.

The abrogation of the “Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell” policy shows the improvement on the treatment towards people who are homosexuals. I feel that the primary purpose of “don’t ask” is to allow homosexual people to serve in the military. But the policy proved to be little protection, and since the, about 14,000 men and women have been forced out of the service under “don’t ask.” Government should not take the soldiers’ jobs away just because they are gay.   

I read from a newspaper that Former Defense Undersecretary Bernard Rosker said in an interview that the end of “don’t ask” won’t necessarily lead gays and lesbians in the military to come out. Rostker led a landmark 1993 Rand study on homosexuality and the military, and he said he found that even in other countries where it was allowed, men and women in the armed forces tended to keep their sexual orientation to themselves. “We found that for most people it is a private matter,” Rostker said,” and the like to keep it that way. The reason may be that homosexual people are not being accepted by all the people, thought the views of people are changing. They may have an inner battle at the time they found out that they interested in people who have the same gender.

[RE]Weak blood relationship

Since Siukwan responses on my post; as a return present, I decided to write her a response post back. (Well, it is not the real reason :D)

When we first came here we have no house to live in nor have a car to travel around or a job, and we to depend heavily on my uncle. His wife wasn’t too happy with this; she thought we’re taking advantage of them. She brainwashed my uncle day and night on this and finally my uncle in her. My father and uncle got in a huge fight, and we moved out shortly afterwards.

I had been in an exactly same situation before. Put more precisely, my dad was the one who experienced all. My dad moved to America two years earlier than me and mom; he was planed to lay a solid foundation for us so that we may face less problems. Just like Siukwan’s family, my father has not thing and depend heavily on my aunt. He worked for my aunt as a kitchen staff. It is one of the most tiring jobs and my dad got paid even less than the lowest wage. My father refused to be dictated; therefore he moved out after the first week and lived with my uncle instead. However, the worst is yet to come.

The lucky thing is my uncle found my dad a job, but it is in Fremont. My dad did not own a car back then, so he needed to take bus 51 and then changed to Bart. Everything was fine just up to this point. My uncle’s wife, just like in Siukwan’s case, thought my dad was taking advantage of them. She played my uncle off against my father: another mere coincidence. She began to prepare less food for my dad and being cruel to him. Once my father wanted to take the tests for driver’s license, my uncle told other that my father must failed, no matter how many times he took it. In fact, my dad passed both written test and driving test with only one shot. Considering the safety and warranty, my dad decided to buy a new car rather than a second-handed car. And my uncle started “How are you going to afford a brand new car for being a new immigrant you fool, why don’t you just pack your stuff and go back to China?” Finally, my dad can bear no more and rent a house himself.

It is surprising how weak the bond among people with blood relationship is. People always said that human is the superior animal, then why do people always fight against each other just like the wild animal does.

[Free]Computer science every where!

There is every sign to show that Computer Science is brainwashing everybody.

During the English class on Wednesday, we worked in Computer Lab as usual. Nathan and Katherine switched computers for some reason. Katherine did not log out her blogger, therefore Nathan get to post what ever he wanted with Katherine’s account. Being a guy who is totally crazy about tennis, the first post Nathan posted is simply a sentence “Katherine loves tennis.” Maybe Nathan thought this sentence did not make Katherine look stupid enough, later on, he posted another post on her blogger. This time, he copied the code form a java project he just did during last period (which is computer science). People who have never token the class may consider Katherine as retarded. Nathan showed it to me proudly, with a triumphant smile, just like a kid who just won candies from parents. As a person representing justice and honesty, I praised (…) Nathan and left a comment as soon as I got my own computer. Unfortunately, I am another victim who was brain washed by computer science, I reply by using the exact format of programming:

Public class lol

{

   Public static void main (String[] args)

   {  

       System.out.println(“Wow Nathan good job!”);

    }

}

I don’t know when Katherine found out what we have done, but the post was removed when I checked it this afternoon. It was kind of sad, but there is no reason for Katherine to keep it, haha. I have to admit that Nathan and I are childish, but it is fun isn’t it?

[BC] Personal Statement 2nd prompt 1st draft

Badminton is a popular sport in China. It is a sport requiring dexterity and skill. Since badminton is light and small. Every time I watch the Badminton competition, I would be amazed by the great speed and skills of the player. Being a girl who grows up in China, I started to play badminton when I was in elementary school. Although I am not very good at it, I still enjoyed it when I was playing with my friends.

However, the real start of my badminton career was after I came to the United States and joined the badminton team in my high school. At first, joining the badminton team is not my primary wishes. I tried out because one of my friends wanted to play double with me. Once I decide to do something, I always strive to do my best. Therefore, we practiced every day after school. A formal team member became our coach. After days of hard work, we got in the team and became women double varsity number three. It was a heartening news to become a varsity in the first year.

Napoleon said “Every French soldier carries a marshal’s baton in his knapsack.” In out badminton team, every team member carries a gold medal from ACCAL in his/her badminton bag. We all wanted to won a gold medal and brought back the honor for school and ourselves. Soon I realized my partner and I were not strong enough. We were the last in our school; we could image how low our ranking in the whole region is. During the summer after freshmen year, I went back to China to visit my family and friends. At the same time, I practiced badminton at a sports school with a professional coach. He used to play in our provincial team. Many parents sent their children to play badminton when they were only about five; I was trained with many kids. The coach corrected my wrong posture and trained me from the most basic steps.

The training was very hard. There was no wind in the gym since the wind would affect the directions of badminton.   Plus the summer in Guangzhou is much hotter than in Alameda, the gym was as hot as an oven. Once I entered the gym, I needed to do a footwork drill for 100 times by myself as warm ups. There were more footwork practices when the training started. Each drills need to repeat 100 times, non stop, and no water break. There were several times I almost gave up and stopped, but I did not. I believed perseverance will conquer all things; it was also my will which supported me all the time. The result was remarkable. I played much better than before.

Our rank was been improving year by year. Finally, in my junior year, we were at the top. It is our time to won the gold metal back for our school. No one in our school had won the first place of women double before. That inspires my fighting will. Our school had many disadvantage that year, it even shut down the gym we used to practice. We forced to practice in a gym that is far away from school.   

Badminton now becomes an indispensable part of my life.

[It is not complete, but I will make improvements later.]

[RE] Friends

When I was reading my friend’s blogger as usual, Siukwan’s free post got my attention. Here is her post.

She mentioned:

 good friends are friends that you have a couple of common interests, that you want to be nice to and they will have your back most of the time. Occasionally, we can even trade secrets and gossip about our other friends. As for important friends, there’s already a trust built between you and them. They’re someone that you can ‘give your back to’ because you know that they will never backstab you. You still share some interests, but you won’t have to talk all the time when they’re around-being with them is already enough.

In my understanding, the important friends are like an upper level of good friends. I felt that I have several good friends but may not have an important friend. The first time I met a person, I would always try to be a good friend to them. For instance, I would try to find some common interests and treat them very friendly. As the time pass by, I can tell who treat me like a real friend and who can I really be friend with. There was sometimes that I see a couple of people as good friends (or even important friends), but found out that they speak ill of me behind my back. That was a horrible feeling, feels like some one stab hardly on my back with a knife, some one that I do not expect.

Sometimes I would find out the bad side of my friends. I would tolerate at first. Once it is not getting control and gets so much worse, I may not be friend with them as close as before. The distance will reduce the discontent. But this would be a rare case.

To me, the chance to find an important friend is very low. Some of my friends are truly have high positions in my heart. However, I do not have enough confidence that they would think the same way as me. Maybe it is because my best friends at 5^th grade turn their back at me once. Although we were on good terms again, the scar remains.

I am a person that can not live without friends. Therefore I valued them.

[CE]US state executes convict despite appeals

http://english.aljazeera.net//news/americas/2011/09/2011920223328333340.html

Troy Davis, a convicted murderer, has been executed in the US state of Georgia after the US Supreme Court denied a last minute stay which would have stopped the lethal injection. He was put in death after twenty years, for killing Mark MacPhail, a white police officer of Savannah. MacPhail was working as a security guard at a Burger King restaurant when he intervened to defend a man being assaulted in a nearby parking lot. During David's 1991 trial, seven witnesses testified they had seen Davis shoot MacPhail, and two others testified that Davis had confessed the murder to them.“However, seven of the nine witnesses who testified against Davis in his 1991 trial later changed their testimony, and two witnesses said they saw another man - who originally blamed Davis for the killing - pull the trigger,” says in the article.

This event has aroused wide public concern. Troy Davis has been jailed for twenty years and put to death as an innocent person; I felt sad for him. At the mean time, many questions occurred to me. Those witnesses were doubtful. Which statement they said is true? And if the second one is true, what made they lied at the first time? I also think about the death penalty. People have been argued that should there be a death penalty for a long time. A death penalty may put an innocent person to death, just like Troy Davis in this case. They do not deserve to endure the punishments for the real criminal. Also, some people would say even the government should not done the same crime as those condemned one. What if those criminals killed your most beloved ones? Will people who opposed the death penalty still stay in their primary positions?